In one year so much has changed for better and for worse but I think, looking back, I have come out of it a better person.
It started well, with promise. By March/April it was clear that it wasn't going to stay that way when my Nan became ill and passed away,
that loss, it's still crushing, she was the most amazing woman and is missed by many. I/we try not to dwell too much on the negative though, remembering instead all the positives she bought to us and how as a family we have grown closer together.
On a personal note, her passing gave me the kick up the arse needed to get myself sorted out, to commit for a final time to recovery and to get myself to the happy and healthy point that she always wanted to see me at. The passing of a friend, Lisa, in August cemented this...life IS too short and too precious to waste and it's from this great sense of loss I emerge stronger.
On a happier note, great things have happened. There was the wedding of my dear friends Louise and James in May, the welcoming of Mae in to our family to heal the gap that Flash left. My holiday to Spain that opened up so many windows of opportunity and bought Ellie and I even closer as friends and probably more famously, the holiday to Holland with best.friend. that left me on crutches (I promise not to hold it against you Trudi!)
2012 was a great year for blogging, I have met so many wonderful girls and made new friends. The year has also shown just how great the power of internet friendship is and I probably wouldn't have got even half as far as I have now if it wasn't for the people who took the time to read, tweet, send love/cards/support...if you are reading this post now then this includes you and I'd like to thank you, all.
It would be too easy to write 2012 off as the worst year ever, to dwell on the negatives and dread the next 12 months. Perhaps in the past that is exactly what I would have done but now, as we are about to start 2013 I can't help but feel excited and hopeful for the adventures that lie ahead...work (to who I owe so much), friends, holidays, health, happiness...I look forward to finally accepting myself for who I am and not a number on the scale, to accept and enjoy a healthier, curvier body and realise it doesn't change who I am inside. To spend more time with the people who matter to me most and spend less time dwelling on those who don't. I can't wait to meet my cousin's baby who is due on my Birthday, to welcome in new life. To have adventures that are both planned and unplanned and live for the moment rather than routine.
Most of all though, I hope that you...all of you reading this have a good year too. Whatever 2012 gave to you, I hope 2013 goes one better.
Live, love and enjoy, you are worth it.
|It will be OUR year.|